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Lets Not Shit Ourselves  So, I haven't posted something in this for what it says, 24 weeks. So, I decided to update. I'm not sure where to start. Everything isn't the same anymore. I moved back in with mom, sometimes I think it's the worst choice I've ever made, and sometimes I think it's the best. Everyone became friends again, but fell back apart, & Daniel came back into my life again, and then broke my heart again. I got my first tattoo, I don't really wear my piercings that much anymore, until I graduate anyway, because I'm tired of people discriminating against the different people. I'm tired of hearing people's mouths. I don't have a computer at home right now; so I resort to the computer at school. Brandon and I just got back from Ohio Saturday, it was a good time; like always. I feel like I've lost my connection with God, and I'm trying my hardest to restore that pure relationship. I'm so tired and drained, but I feel good. I guess this is it for now, until next time... later days. Current mood: poopie.. So, today is my last day of school. I have to take my History final at 9:20. & then Im going to Christines house afterward. My nails are bubbly, so hopefully she can fix them. Friday, Im suppouse to spend the day at with JT at the mall. Im hella excited. :] My alarm clock didn't wake me up until 45 after this morning, and my dogs jumped all over me. :/ I can't wait to get this whole thing over with. bluh. Kayla and I are leaving for the beach next month. I can't wait til I go. I love the sand. & Miranda and I are working on going to see The Used sometime this summer, in Missouri. I hope things work out, because it would be killer to meet Burt McCracken. really, I think I'll die. Welp, Im going to go and drink my green tea. & relax and study for alittle bit. Peace. Current mood:  crappy.
So. Today, it is officalllll. I am a Senior. yayayayayyayayyayayayayaya. Today Im making the shirt that Im wearing to Brandon's graduation Saturday. it's going to say Thks fr the mmrs on the frount. & BUTCHER c/o 07' on the back. It's going to be black, with gold sparkly letters. I'll do anything to make him smile. Yesterday, everything fell apart. The family is not the family anymore. It's so dissapointing. But, in the end I figured it would only be me & Jerry in the end. Brandon's my soul. So, he's with me forever. Things change I suppouse, no matter how upset they make people. Woo, I just choked on my tea, and all most died. Now Im embarassed, everyones looking. bahaha. Final's are next week. I know Im going to fail my math final. I have a feeling Im going to be making up classes after I graduate. I think Im going to get a tutor. or something. Coal Fest is coming up. Leona is coming in. & SARAHSSS MOVING BAAACCCKKK HOMMMEEEE. yay. Actually, in Charleston. :] Im so fucking exstatic. Im getting a job at Books-a-Million after summer is over. it's going to suck. But, it looks like Im going to have to start taking care of my sister. She told me that we have stick together, yesterday. So, I guess that really does mean that she loves me. She said that she's knows that Im going to leave her one day. Now, that makes me not want to move out, and leave her. :[ My teeth are coming along nicely. :] I have one of those wide model smiles. I can't wait. I hope summer isn't dull this year. I love the smell of my deoderant. Bah.:D Mmm, I think Im done for now. i love you Current mood:  ecstatic.
13 more days until summmmmmmmmmeerrr. & Im offically a Senior. booyah. :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D Current mood:  Caring..
This weekend was amazing. well, sorta. I don't remember what happened Friday, I guess it wasn't that important. Saturday, I went to LaRissa's. At first it was Brandon, Shauna, LaRissa, Anthony, and Ashley at first. We just chilled around McDonalds for awhile, and then Jerry, Catlin, Whit, Brit, & Amanda showed up. :] Jerry was looking as good as always, in his The Used tshirt. :] We went back to LaRissa, and Jerry, Whit, & Amanda, and I ended up going back out to Madison to get alcohol. Jerry sang to me the whole way. :] We got like one bottle of Bacadi. & he got a mini bottle of rum for himself. which he shared with me later. We came back to LaRissa's. Brandon and Anthony started off the night with fighting, what's new? Everyone started drinking around 10. except for me. Because, Im trying to quit all the crap. Catlin smoked weed before anyone got back home, he threw up everywhere. I took care of him. We all got on the trampoline. When Brandon left to go to Wal*mart and played around. Then we just layed there. Jerry was between my legs. We were just goofing off. It was great. I love those people. Brandon got a new car for graduation. its an 07' Dodge Caliber. it's pretty nice. Graduation is next Saturday. 6 more days left until summer time. Im pumped. Finals are coming up. Hopefully I do well. I'll die if I have to repeat a grade. I guess all I can do it pray, and study. Anyway, Im gonna go. later. peace. Current mood: chipper.
So, it just hit me today, Im offically a Senior. Things have changed so much, none of this I was exspecting. My best friend is going off to college, & the last thing I want is to lose him. As if it's not hard enough for us to see each other, college is going to put a bigger strain on our relationship. So, our only alternative is roll with the punches, and over come it like we have since December. & wait for my graduation to roll around. Im so proud of him, being able to make it this far, with steady grades, and his heart on his sleeve. Im so blessed to be apart of it, and to be call "his best friend" Next weekend Im going to watch him walk across the stage to receive his diploma, and wish that I could've stuck around for the remainder of his Senior year. Im sure I've missed out on so much. But, what time I did share with him, was amazing, and I will remember ever second of it, from this point on, til the rest of my life. I love you, Brandon and I always will. I have some of the most amazing friends in the world. I wouldn't be here without them. I love you guys, you are my family for life. iloveyou Im not sure what my future holds. Hopefully, Im not some lame-o that works at McDonalds for the rest of their life. I have goals, that Im hoping that I accomplish. key word: hope-ing. But, with the encouragement & love of my amazing sister, Im sure I'll get to where I want to be in life, and be content. Another thing that I realize, something that makes my heart break everytime I think about it is, Im not graduating with the people that I grew up with. I wont be walking on stage before Cassie & Kayla, and high fiving them both after shaking Mr. Cox & Mr. Boltons hands. It seriously breaks my heart. Cassie and I completely fell apart. I was talking to my sister about all of the memories that Cassie and I had. I wish we could become close again. I miss what our friendship use to be. Im not sure if its to late or not, but i dont know, I still love her like my sister. LYLAS << I haven't seen that in forever. and Kayla and I are hanging on for dear life, but I think we'll make it as well. We have plans for the future, hopefully they don't fall threw. But, they were the two that shaped me into the person that I am today, they were my begining. & wether or not we're that close anymore, I apprecate EVERYTHING that we've shared. Im thinking about asking Mr. Bolton if I can walk the stage with Scott Seniors instead of GW. Anyway, Im done, until later. I'll probably end up editing this later. iloveyou. Current mood: disappointed.
Bahaha, Senior prank was pretty rad, I know its not the end of it. I walked into the QSA this morning. & instead of lunch tables the Seniors had cleaned out all of the classrooms of there desks and put them in there. I hearddddd... They all chipped in and bought like 2000 crickets. & they're going to let them loose upstairs. &&&&& they're suppouse to be a MASSIIIIIIVEEEEEEE food fight at lunch. Bahah. Update later. ♥ Current mood: hyper.
I got my exspander put on, on Monday, can you say miserable ? I sound like Im a retarded 7 year old. So, I refuse to speak until, as my dentist said " my mouth gets use to this forigne object" which I laughed histerically when he said that. :] This weekend I don't plan on doing jack shit. cleaning. sleeping. But, next weekend is Brandon's graduation. Im saddened, but excited. I made Jeremy an extremely late birthday card. with a bunch of random facts in it, since ya know he knows "everything" :/ Bluh, Im not feeling so well. I think Im going to cut this short. peace. Current mood:  irate.
Mothers Day, sucked big balls. I hate any holiday that has to do with your parents. I hate walking into Halmark and seeing all of these cards that say "Mom you're so special" & "to the best mother in the world" and "thanks for all of your guidance." & " thanks for all of your encouragement." and so forth. fuck that. I wish they would make one that was simply stated. "Happy Mothers Day" Or like, "Hi, thanks for beating me" or something. I didn't get mom anything for mothers day this year. But, I DID get grandma something, because I love her more than life. Im not feeling so well. I have to go to the dentist at 10. Hopefully, my sister doesnt make me come back to school, because that would be just lame. I want McDonalds breakfast. ahaha. I keep waking up at like every hour on the hour. I've been doing this for the past 3 days. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5. time to go to school. it's gay. I went to see Alyshya over the weekend. We didn't do much. She smoked pot with some people down the street, and then we chilled in her room, and then fell asleep in the living room. I went home. I've decided what I want to do for my 18th birthday. During the day I want to go to a coffee shop on Corrior St. & listen to some Accoustics. and then go see a dragshow at Traxxx. then come home and go to bed. Yup, no drinking. no nothing. Anyway, Im going to quit this. I'll go on later. ♥ Current mood:  exhausted.
16 more days. until summer. :) :) :) :) So, Im going to Warp Tour this year. Be jealous. :D Line Up: Alesana All Time Low The Almost Amber Pacific Anberlin The Automatic Automatic Bad Religion Bayside Big D and the Kids Table Bleed The Dream Bless the Fall Boys Like Girls The Chariot Chiodos Circa Survive Coheed and Cambria Cute is What We Aim For The Dear and Departed Drop Dead, Gorgeous Escape the Fate Evaline The Fabulous Rudies Family Force 5 Funeral For A Friend Gallows The Graduate Haste the Day Hawthorne Heights Human Abstract It Dies Today Killswitch Engage K-OS Mayday Parade The Matches Meg and Dia My American Heart New Found Glory Nothington Paramore Parkway Drive Pennywise Pepper Red Jumpsuit Apparatus Revolution Mother Scary Kids Scaring Kids Spill Canvas The Starting Line Straylight Run Street Drum Corps Throwdown Tiger Army The Toasters Underoath The Unseen The Vincent Black Shadow Jealous much, yes? :) Woo. ♥ Current mood: ecstatic.
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